wings of desire

you know in that movie, wings of desire, where peter falk is an angel and he writes little, human actions down in that little notebook and when he does that it makes the action seem so important and meaningful even though it was just like: 330pm, girl brushes hair out of her face and smiles. yesterday while i was driving around i saw two old ladies cutting their lawns this those old push mowers. for whatever reason this made me feel like peter falk in wings of desire, like i had to write down the totally ordinary but important moment. then at the gas station last night this douchebag in front of me wanted buy some gum ("oh you know what sounds good? some gum." who says shit like that?) but the clerk had already swiped his card. the guy wasn't too upset but the clerk offered him a piece of his own gum, and the guy was so grateful. it was pretty great.

i've started working at a group home for developmentally disabled adults. when i worked on wednesday i got 8 hugs. 8 hugs. is there any other job where you can get 8 hugs in one shift. and one of the "consumers" calls me angel all the time. HEY ANGEL. WHO LOVES YOU? I LOVE YOU. YOU KNOW YOU'RE SPECIAL RIGHT? YOU'RE AN ANGEL. they have these things called essentail life plans (elps) and they have differnt sections like: what is great about so and so, what so and so likes, what they dislike, people who get along with so and so have these qualities, so and so's goals. i think i want to make one for myself, or maybe for my friend billy because he works there too and would probably really appreciate it. they have help with their finances and with "social interaction." i need help with that stuff, especially finances.

i need an essential life plan.